Prelude to Indigo Smokes
My journey with anxiety alongside depression has been a long, emotional rollercoaster ride,to say the least. And even aside from that, as a person, I'm also just naturally sensitive; this applies both emotionally and physically. How depression and anxiety show themselves, of course, vary from person to person. Speaking purely from my personal experiences, they both have physical and emotional affects on me, ranging from panic attacks, migraines, loss of appetite to feelings of hopelessness, helplessness or emotional numbness. Due to the previously stated sensitivities, my body is also significantly reactive to medications and cosmetic products as well.
At several points in my life, all of the above was very frustrating and discouraging to me. Coming from a family that has never fully acknowledged emotional or mental imbalances as something worthy of further investigation, in conjunction with family drama and consistently being emotionally/mentally undermined by some of those closest to me; I felt that something was wrong with me and that I needed to be "fixed". Even more than wanting to "fix" myself, I desperately wanted to hide what I thought were my "flaws". I wanted to hide everything that ever made me "too much" for everyone else.
Throughout battling these two emotional extremes, I naturally leaned towards the holistic approach in managing and maintaining my equilibrium. I've learned (and continue to learn) my triggers-- the various situations, foods, people, environments, personal thoughts, habits, patterns, and so forth that bring forth my anxiety and depressive episodes. I've also learned to allow these two extremes to bring me into balance by acting as kind of an internal "alarm system" that lets me know when I'm out of balance and need recalibration. I incorporate mind+body+soul wellness into my daily lifestyle in a plethora of ways, i.e, meditation, writing, aromatherapy, metaphysics, herbal healing, energy healing, self-care practices, creative expression, self-therapy and the list goes on...
So what role does 'Indigo Smokes' play in all of this? As an extension of myself-- it's an evolving brand that takes and reflects a more relaxed and creative approach to self care, holistic balance, creative expression, expanding consciousness as well as to life and its' various nuances. Here as a platform, for others to know they're not alone in their struggle, that it's not only possible but also okay to cope and heal in their own way-- obviously, given that it obviously doesn't inflict harm on others in the process. It's fine that you're sensitive, always anxious, or whatever else you may feel emotionally burdened with; this does not make you less than. It's not necessary to give up all enjoyment or take a "holier than thou" approach in order to improve or heal yourself.
By making sure that you're a priority in your own life, living to the fullest, being creative, expanding your horizons(and your consciousness) you're exercising all of the freedoms and rights that most people have yet don't even take full advantage of. In future posts, I'll elaborate further on my alternative approach to holistic health, wellness and self mastery.